Thursday, April 16, 2015

Girl Talk Book Study: Week ONE

Week one and done. I’m not going to lie, God is already giving me a few love slaps. Ha!

I kinda want to be best friends with Jen Hatmaker now.  Any woman that calls Target God’s store has my heart. Ha!

Starting off, we were asked to reflect on the relationships in our life. Honestly, I need people in my life. I would call myself a social butterfly. My husband would say I talk too much, ehem.  I just love people. I need people. 

I think the hardest part about being that way is remembering that people are flawed. We are all sinners. When you put faith in man, you will eventually be let down. Not because everyone means to hurt you but because we are all imperfect. 

BUT, alone is never how God intended us to be. If so, he would have stopped with Adam.  Nope he knew that Adam needed Eve.  Lord knows Nick needs me. LOL.  I need him too!  

When we are alone, we are left to our own devises, you know..that nagging Satan in our ear. I will admit, I am one of those people sometimes.  If you look at me wrong, my mind goes to a million different places…

She doesn’t like me.  I’m not pretty.  Crap, she is mad at me. 

Meanwhile, she is thinking…gosh I hope no one can tell that I have bad gas. Ha!

When we left alone to our thoughts, Satan attacks and whispers nonsense in our ear. Hopefully you have a friend that you can share this nonsense with, she can slap you around and send you on your merry way.  I feel so blessed that I have strong women in my life that will say, “Crystal you are acting a fool. Pull it together!” 

I know in my community of faith, I am loved. I don't think it is conceited to say that. I am blessed to have friends that I know I can depend on.  I also know that my faith isn’t in any person, but God alone. This is my way of staying guarded and understanding that forgiveness was given to me and I need to do the same for others. We all have the ability to be a friend but that doesn't mean that we won't make mistakes. 

Day FOUR was a doozy for me y’all.  Kings, Queens, and YOU!  Understanding that learned behavior translates to adulthood is my daily jam as a teacher.  I tell parents all the time, we are not raising kids, we are raising adults.  It doesn’t matter to me that my students are only five.  If we don’t start teaching and loving them now, then when? 

Oh to be a child….naive and hopefully oblivious to the sins of the world. I think this is why I teach kindergarten.  I love spending the majority of my day living through the eyes of a five year old.  It really is such a fun adventure and you never know what to expect next.  There is true joy and exploration as they aren’t afraid. Children are fearless when it comes to just about everything.  I wish I could bottle that and drink it every day. 

Praise God that “He can make royalty out of any mess.”  He knew before he created me that I would be a hot mess.  He is constantly picking up the pieces and putting them back together for me.  There are times he is pushing me and times he is dragging me kicking a screaming.  Thankfully it is his plan for me to not walk this journey alone.  I can let go of my past, break down walls and let some girlfriends in to hold my hand along the ride.

So reflecting this week…I know, understand and whole heartedly believe that community is totally important to God and so very important to me. I’m wearing my honesty like a shield.  
I trust HIM.

See you next week for Truth or Dare: Week 2. I always picked truth when I played that game when I was younger. I was a scaredy cat though. Ha! I can’t wait to dive in and see what layers God choosing to peel back in my funky onion. 

If you are following along with this book study, please email me so you can join our FB group.  Feel free to link up if you are part of our group. I always love reading others’ reflections.  It’s amazing to me that we can all read the very same verse and it can mean a hundred different things.  God is so good like that. He gives us the discernment we need at that very moment.

Praying for lots of discernment for all of us during this week of study. Know that you are so loved and if you need some Girl Talk, then I’m your girl.

Love and virtual hugs!

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Catching Up...Seuss

I just realized that I never posted my pics from Seuss week so here ya  go!

Our art teacher did these pictures in art class. Aren't they awesome? She is such an asset to our school and our kids do amazing work!

Each day we had a theme based on a Seuss book. We dressed up, made fun art projects and cooked crazy stuff!

Quick post just to give you a peek from that week and to upload my virtual memory so I remember what I did for next year. Ha! Seriously, I am always thinking..what did we do that week? Then I go to my blog and "remember". LOL

Have a great week. Love and virtual hugs!

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Girl Talk: Introduction

I am SO excited to start this book study (Girl Talk by Jen Hatmaker) with you! I am reading  it with my church women’s group and we started last week and let me tell you, IT IS GOOD!

Girl Talk is a five week study. Each week, you will have five lessons to complete. Day five is more of a reflection time spent in the word.  I would suggest grabbing a journal and a highlighter. Even if you aren't a writer, you will want to write. I promise. 

In the INTRODUCTION, Jen tells us that “friendship among women is an avenue to Godliness. It’s not a luxury we should feel guilty about prioritizing….In fact, friendship mimics the very intimacy between the Father and the Son.”

It doesn't matter where you live, if your friends are near or far, even if you don't currently have many.  Being surrounded by a family of faith is so important. We all need support and someone to hold our hand, laugh with us, cry with us and understand the journey we live on. At the very least, it’s nice to have someone listen and offer a hug.

So, suite up Girl Friends! It’s time to jump into this life changing journey. Make new friends. Grow your established friendships. Let go of what holds you down. Ask yourself, why do I need this book study? What am I hoping to learn? Where am I lacking in friendships in my life?

Prepare to GROW.
Prepare to LOVE.
Prepare to LET GO.
Prepare to FORGIVE.
Prepare to UNDERSTAND.
Prepare to LEARN.

Ready, Set, Go! Start week ONE! Meet me back here next Thursday as I reflect and link up if you choose. I personal enjoy sharing my life and the journey God has me on with others but if that's not for you, that's totally cool. If you haven't joined our FB group and want to, email me your facebook name so I can add you or you can search Girl Talk Group and send me a request.

Happy reading. Know that you are loved and we are grateful for you to join us on this journey.

"Make my joy complete by being like minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose."
Philippians 2:2

Sunday, April 5, 2015

Easter: Real Talk From My Heart

Happy Easter! Warning: This post is full of tons of real talk and nothing to do with kindergarten. J

This morning in church, God stirred up a lot of things in me, a prospective and remembrance that made me even more grateful as I worshiped during our Easter service. If you are a frequent flyer on my blog then you know that I love me some Jesus. All day. Every day. I’m not shy about it. It’s the root of my core. I’m not sure why I am about to spill the beans here but I feel like sharing my heart. This story is not completely new if you are a frequent flyer on Kreative in Kinder.  Here we go.

If you have read my blog for a while, you know I am a wife and mother to my three adopted children.  My three (now crazy teenagers) were born straight from my heart.  I didn’t think it was that big, but it is and even has room for more.   I have PCOS and I have always known that I may never be able to have children. Really, I didn’t ovulate until three years ago after losing a ton of weight. Anywho, I have prayed and prayed and stood on a promise that one day God would give me a miracle and I would carry a child. I won’t say a child of my own because even though I did not carry my children, they are my own and my love for them knows no borders.

Two years ago God gave me that miracle child. Because I am a hot mess patient, I went to the doctor almost weekly and as soon as he formed the baby’s heart, I got to hear it and see. Really through every part of early creation, I was a fly on the wall and it was amazing. My husband and I couldn’t wait to share the news of our miracle with the world. I went in for my 11 week appointment and that little heart beat was gone.  Based upon the measurements, they believed it had happened very recently.  The night before my appointment I remember sitting on the couch and having what felt like a panic attach. My chest was heavy and I felt really bad. That night I had the best night of sleep in two months.  I do believe it was that moment that my baby went to heaven.  I’m going to honest, that was the worst moment of my life.  I had prayed for this miracle for so long and then it was gone.  My hurt went so deep as if it was coming from my toes.  I was broken.

Two days later, a friend of mine told me to cry out to God because he knew what it felt like to lose a child in the worst way.  This morning during church while reading scripture about the crucifixion and resurrection,  God reminded me of this connection we share.  We both lost our precious children. Granted, I never met my child, but I can tell you that I loved that baby with all of my heart.  Even so, I could not imagine allowing it to die for the sake of others. I would hope that my children would be selfless in a time of need, but if Jesus had asked me to give up my child, I don’t think I could do it.  I guess that makes me human…a flawed creature.  I can’t help but think about the pain I felt with my miscarriage and realize that is nothing compared to what God endured while Jesus was on the cross. 

Today was my second Easter without my little miracle.  God has been faithful.  He has showed me why he allowed it to happen and I have peace with it.  It has only grown my faith and trust.  It also makes me more thankful for his sacrifice.  What has been done for us in the kingdom was no small task.  It’s something we ourselves could never do.   I really think my miscarriage helps me to be thankful and appreciate Jesus even more (on a personal level, not compared to others) because there is some empathy there.  Every time I miss my baby, I remember to thank God for giving me Jesus and because of Jesus, I can see my baby one day. This also gives me peace because I believe God would not allow me to suffer in such a way knowing and understanding what that pain truly feels like. I believe in his plan and purposes in my life. He never said it would be easy but he did say he would never leave us or forsake us.

**Side note: I know many people do not talk about miscarriages but that’s not how I roll. A loss is a loss and it makes no difference to me that I didn’t carry that sweet baby all the way to the finish line. People that say.. “well at least..” no, it’s not at least anything because it WAS something and that pain is real.  

So, today I am thankful for the resurrection because this life is only for a season but eternity for my family, my entire family, and yours is forever. Happy Easter.

Still praying for my next miracle, 


**Feel free to leave a comment but please be kind. We all don’t have to agree or share the same beliefs but we should always be kind to one another.  Love and virtual hugs!